30 days of reading, hearing, and speaking truth into our lives; my story.
Welcome to day 20!
Yesterday we talked about or walk with Jesus, and that we can expect to fail sometimes. Let me tell you, I know that word well! Today I simply want to share a bit of my story in hopes that in can be encouraging to you!
Day 21! No post! What? Instead a video, a recap of our journey so far! And an inside look at my mornings with Jesus! They are not glamorous by any means, but filled with Jesus!
Being broken leads to opportunity……………..
Running into Jesus in the best thing one can do. It took me awhile to figure this out, although somewhere in my subconscious I knew it to be true. For many years, instead of running into Jesus, I ran away. Why? I didn’t see being broken as an opportunity, but a weakness.
There was a time in my life when I ran, and lots, almost daily. To some degree the miles that I put on my heart and shoes was temporarily helpful. It gave me some measure of peace and rest, but not the kind I longed for, searched for, and desperately needed.
Without fail, the minute life started to feel out of control; whether it was the restlessness in me, or circumstances, out the door I would go to find some sort of relief through physical exhaustion.
The more I hurt, the harder I would run.
We all have our vices, mine just happened to be running.
I was literally running from the chance to be broken. Yet, in all my running, God was there. He continuously and patiently waited for me to exhaust myself, to give up.
Then something amazing happened. I completely broke…..I reached a point……I couldn’t run anymore….It wasn’t working….I had no choice but to look outside of my own efforts, to God. I knew I had to surrender.
Absolute surrender comes after complete brokenness. We willfully make this choice, when we have no other. What I once foolishly ignored quickly became my only source of hope.
What I fought against for so long became my biggest blessing, being broken.
Being broken is an opportunity to let God in. It is a time to surrender all. So how do we get to this place of absolute surrender? Let me share with you how God helped me do it:
- I let go and let God be in control. Psalm 46:10, Isaiah 64:8, Matthew 16:24-25.
- I recognized my need for Him, and daily. John 15:5, Philippians 4:19-20
- I allowed myself to be broken. (I laid down my pride, my desire to please everyone in my life, and starting looking to God for all my needs: love, healing, deliverance, clarity, and His power to bring about the healthy change in my life that I needed). Psalm 34:18, Jeremiah 30:17
Absolute surrender is not easy. It takes courage, because it goes against our natural fleshy propensity to do things our way, to try harder, to depend on ourselves, and ignore our pain.
When I made the decision to completely let go, surrender, and let God in, I experienced a breakthrough!
He provided me with all that I needed and so much more. He knew my heart, hurt, and need far better than I did.
I still run, and I still cry when I run. The difference is, I run to Him; now I shed tears of joy and thanksgiving for what He has done in me and for me. He desires to do the same for you. It’s ok to be broken, being broken leads to opportunity.
I hope this blessed you dear friends,
Tomorrow I will have a video for you! As we recap these last 20 days, thank God for what He has done in your heart! Thank Him for what He is going to speak to your heart in the next 9 days! Together Let’s begin to pray asking God to lead us, change us, and to show us the changes He desires for us!
Song of the day! This what God does for us!
Fall afresh on us, by Kari Jobe